S is for Staph Struggles, Sleepless, Stressed out but Still Here

August and September were just lousy months. I know that is not a great way to start my first blog post in a few weeks and it will probably seem like a bunch of excuses but that's how it is right now. First though, I am still here. I am still doing what I can to lose what I need to lose. I am holding my weight under where I was, and at times have even thought I might see 190 lbs soon...only to see the next day's reading up 3 or 4 pounds.

I got follow up results from the blood work I did and the white blood cells are back to normal or at least close to it. But I am still struggling with energy levels. My thyroid numbers are good and I am not anemic so the decision is that for now I just keep pushing forward and see if it gets better. The doc said I have to remember this was a major situation. I know it took me down hard but I am used to bouncing back faster than this. I also know that MRSA is no joke and often can linger in your system. I try not to be paranoid about it but the slightest little sore that doesn't heal quickly is a bit alarming to me still.

Top that concern off with extra work hours for year end, the stress of worrying about my mom's health (she did wonderful here with us and I will be so sad to see her go home),  woes from deceased job hours for the other half, and a rental house going empty. I guess it is no wonder I am not sleeping...can't sleep because I am exhausted and stressed and am more exhausted and stressed because I am not sleeping. It is a big circle that won't end.

But through all of this, I have maintained my walking as best as I can. Most nights, I try to walk two miles. My fitbit puts me close to 10,000 steps a day when I can get my head together enough to remember to wear it. Next week I am going to start walking in the time they will allow me to use during work hours because it is getting dark by the time I get home. If I were not walking with an infant stroller and a dog, I'd just take a flashlight but I think I will try the day time walking first since the weather is finally down in the 80s.

Sunday, my mom is going home. Sunday afternoon my plan is to hit the grocery store and restock the things I was eating on Scarsdale. I am happy I could hold my weight and not go up any further but not happy about so many weeks with no progression. I refuse to give up so the best thing for me to do is cut out the things which may be making my weight swing up and down and see if I can boost the loss again.

I will be back to regular daily blogging starting on Monday. Hope to be able to have positive results but need to be writing no matter what the result is.

//kj//